I live by colours

2008-06-23T21:41:00.001+08:00

100th post! hahaha

2008-06-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

Poeple who still reading here. plese note that i ahve change blog to

http://patiencelim.blogspot.com

2008-06-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

hell, this blog isn't dead yet!!! hahaha

2008-04-28T18:49:00.002+08:00

hey, it been a long time since i last blog here. but I'm going to revive this blog again, it will only be for my personal blogging. yeah, that stupid guy ask me to sit so far away so since my friend was there i shifted the table, but the moment i left the table they shift it back. so i was so angry that i shifted it to a corner and i did my work there. and half way just as my break started i left the school to meet up with Kimberly to collect the certificate. after we collect she went back to school leaving me alone at pl. so i went to heartland after that. i hang around there and do nothing but to just sit around an dread my school magazine and look at my certificate after that i left the place and finally homed. yeps. i still so angry i don't think i will be going to school tomorrow. i will be hanging around at orchard area or may meet up with Alicia after that. yeps, gotta go. see ya!

2008-03-02T00:12:00.013+08:00

Onerepublic - Stop And Stare lyrics

i love this song seriously. prefect installation was good. just didn't get enought service? the pastor's sermon was good. i went back to pl yesterday, yeap we play a foold. today i wnet to t3 with alicia to send liying off.then we ate at coffee bean and then we rush to pl for my cell, after that we went to vivist seow hui at her house. and then back to t3 again. yeah i ate lunch with alicia and her grandparents. lol funny convo we had. after that i took bus 52 to upper paya lebar and then i took 153 to bukit merah for prayer meeting. god just break my heart i'm giving it all to you

You can stop and stare, we are moving but we get nowhere.

Sorry

2008-02-25T11:50:00.002+08:00

hey sorry for not blogging, i have been faithful blogging at xanga but I'm now back t blogger again. and sadly, so many things happen during the past few days. so yeah. but i want to thanks god for my spiritual grandma. it been a really good reunion with my spiritaul siblings. ok gotta go my teachers gonna scold me. bye!

Chinese New Year

2008-02-11T12:30:00.000+08:00

New years eve's meal was fantastic, really lots of food to eat.New year day 1, total amount of hong bao, $200, and lots of food to eat again, played around with my cousing, melorie,bella and me had lots of fun with the makeover that we had. second day, nothing much, but just as free. Saturday, slack around at home doing nothing, Sunday, majong party. total amount won, $90. yeah so that all for my new year highlights. ok gotta go back to my project ciao!

keep holding on

2008-02-04T12:26:00.000+08:00

New year is here, yet nothing is done. We haven't done any spring cleaning, not even buying all the necssary food, not evening buying new clothes. haiz, so yeah. One of my fishes died, his name is moli, i got him from the pl funfair, rather he jumped down to his death. so yeah . ok gotta go. =)

just do it

2008-02-01T08:19:00.001+08:00

well, i just have to bear with the two years with the two bastards. I'm now using the school computer. ok this is the 90th post, shall get angry over some childish boys. ok i will post again when i have the time, school taking too much of my time.
lol. ciao!

outing and fun

2008-01-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

I really had a vary nice time with my "girlfriends" last Friday at pl, well, we didn't do anything much listening to music hang around and rather stalking people. we had a good laugh when Mr lim was talking to us and guess what? he got so angry about the bird eating his food! lol, we really had a good laugh, Thursday, been quite eventful with the o level results and thanking and praising god for the goodness that he has given to us. and some people really spoilt the picture lol, Diana and zi qi got a chance to open up the form A,lol and some ultra super corrupted head prefects really bad convo.

R: Renee
Z: Zi qi

Z: your know we did so well but there's no holiday
R: NO HOLIDAY??
Z: yeah, no holiday for us.
"change tone"
Z: ahem, it OK if we have no holiday, we can be more studious and hardworking
R: yes,yes

well, cell on sat, really had a nice chat with them about the results and rather fulfilling lunch! Sunday, i went to my cousin's house for a visit, ended up doing homework for them, rahs, take advantage of me, but at least one of them got to see one video of them when they were younger. and i did see my too. lol.. with really thick 'clump' of hair. today, stupid projectwork keep piling up.so fed-up so i didn't wanna care anymore. i show atiquah one of mei mei's photos. alot of them say she look like me.lol OK ending here tmr, lunch with madd! omg, i miss her so much

2008-01-21T20:32:00.001+08:00

i feel like blasting some sad music.I'm just so frustrated

i hate you

2008-01-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

your ignorance hurts, you set lies against me,
you attitude despair me, your speech breaks me
now what have you done to me? I hate you.

I want to scream, i don't want to go to school anymore. the boys are like damn childish and the are so ignorant. i hate you for hurting me and using my friend against me. childish.

art and me

2008-01-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

I rather be back in secondary school where there is no project work than in a college with lots of projects but sadly secondary school is all about listening and taking in formation. my drawing has been not rather bad, but the most recent drawing was a c-. so tomorrow I'm going to finish up with my shading and the last minute touch up. i will upload some of my artwork some time soon, including some pictures which i took. and i will post up the project work final piece. I found some very intresting websites that you can look for pictures. especially, when you are a digital media artist. . ok gotta go cya!

Hectic week

2008-01-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

This week has been rather a hectic one, with one of my classmate damn attitude, and i don't now what he tell my best friends about me, like what my teacher said, boys are boys. i cried again yesterday cause i can feel the separation between me and the class, it's like not everybody can be accepted into a clique so easily. and form that i was so deep in thought i just didn't have any appetite to eat. but today was my lucky day, i got to see her and pass her the bookmark that miss Gan wanted me to give to her. she was so shocked to see me. she couldn't recognise me with my let down hair, and i pass the gifts finally to my sis and my bro. and i pass all my notes to my juniors, so that they have some more notes to study. and Mrs wrong gave me some change today cause of the book fine payment and the cca photos! every time i walk past her i always see her sighing away, like what Alicia say she got a sensitive heart, yes and went we walk pass her again, she let out a deep sigh. oh my god, i so love her very much and i miss her. "I love her and I miss her" so nice. But it's so hard to love someone without the other person knowing. I LOVE YOU DEAR!

school

2008-01-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today has been very smooth sailing for me as a new student. and as a junior. I didn't know Darren was a guy. until we were like making our way to the toilet. I believe the reason of this is that i have been so used to a all girls school environment. Mr flu bug decides to bite again! this is the first time of the year that i'm getting sick (not from the new year hangover)please. My dad is rather getting pessimistic with the market server, it been crashed ever since this morning! ok, gotta go. bye!

everyday

2008-01-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

second day of school ahs been quite rather smmoth start of with pod and more of resentation of your vanguard sheet piece. yesterday was rather a spring cleaning day. so did all teh house work today. today i ruash to church just on time for tribe meeting than we ate at a foodcourt in the airport. after eating the bou bou char char, i think my thoart has been rather itvhy. there school again tmr and there is two new teachers that i ahevn't met up with yet. i hopt that i can skip pe this week, or rathfer if it was in the morning i would be able to finish up faster and go back home earlier. this friday i went back to pl to teach tht juniors. then i hang around after seow hui and alicia left then i went to the alumi meet, i saw audrey and cheryl. I had a rather nice chat with them. and today i had a nice chat with renee. thanks dear for listening to all my worries and burden. haha, okmy pillow is calling me now. nite nite

ps:my throat is very itchy and painful.

First day of school

2008-01-10T19:46:00.001+08:00

Finally i started school at ite bedok. i wasn't use to the change of enviroment. i was crying a lot during break cuase i miss pl so much and i wasn't comfortable with the enviroment. yeha but later i had a nice chat with the class advisor, miss Elya. then i went back to class to continuw tih our "drawiwng lessons". i will post up some of my artwork when i have the time. and yeha during pod( Principles of design) we have some brainstorming, tomorrow is the presentation. Tomorrow i wil be buying my uniform and i will be paying for my school books, but i have yet to get a sketch pad for my artwork. so i better think of a way now buy now for tmr. and i will be going back to pl again. this time is the tutor the sec 4 juniros with their homework. and tmr is a really good time to look out of mei mei and di di. i ahevn't pass them the bisquits that i bought for them shit, my bag is going to be really heavy tmr. and i don't want my shoulder to hurt like today again. but i got so many things to bring lucky i don't have any textbook or maybe not yet. ok gotta go still need to buy a sketch book.

outing photos and some random pictues

2008-01-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Birthday pictures

2008-01-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

Video coming up soon

school in

2008-01-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

i assume that everybody has started school accept for those in ite. And those who haven't got into a course yet well, we just gonna have to wait. I'm can't wait to meet my clique member tomorrow, she is going to ite to register and buy her school uniform well, by then i should be able to see all the year two students. Well, at least some there are some people that i will bang into. Thanks Annabelle for the later birthday wish. thanks very much dear.ending off here, bye!

2008-01-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

It a brand new year, and i just don't feel right about it. i have been to a all girls-school environment now it gonna change. i don't think i can adapt to it. after all it gonna be really strange for someone who doesn't even have a sibling of the opposite sex?well, i have yet to get into a course so now i just gonna have to wait and see how?? if now the technical course will be my only choice which i don't want. I know the boys there are gonna tease the girls really bad, well i shall just bare with their childishness.

2007-12-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

Right now i'm thinking of what my dad has said, most of the british women are nevr beautiful but yet there are only one of the most beautiful brits in the world.
She is none other than..

keira Knightley!
gosh, she is really beautiful.

interview and shopping

2007-12-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Interview this morning wasn't bad, it was quite rather fast and easy. In the afternoon, i met up with seow hui , alicia and luvanya for lunch at superdog, then we walk around, we didn't have money to buy any tickets for the show so we went to the internet cafe to use the com anyway. After that we left to toy r us to look at some toys. We headed down to banquet to dinner and then took bus home. i willupload the photos and video whe i ahev the time i just too piss off to do anything.

christmas with god and family spirit

2007-12-27T17:38:00.000+08:00

So far the week has been rather good. Christmas day with cell and church mates. solitude time with god, the amazing long walk, the delicious lunch, the lovely adorable movie,and the family spirit! yeah i was playing with my two younger ones, had fun and laugh all the way. anyway i will upload the pictures about the solitude time and some other random photos when i have the time. anyway i went to school collect my report book and get my locker refund, then i saw her again. so was like talking on the phone all the way to distract myself away from her. Ended up talking to her. i guess I'm just to tired now after all the long travel. ha ha. will update later gotta go to grandma's house to eat adios!

2007-12-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hapyy Birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday happy birthday
happy birthday to you.

hahas, it my birthdya today. i woke up feeling quite normal. then i rceived lots of smses. thanks all for the birthday wiah. Use the com and watch tv as per noraml. i prepared myself for dinner at a indonesian restaurant. the food was damn nice very expensive i belive and best part my ckae it was delicious. then i had a ice chendol as a treat then i continue shopping with kimberly, her mom and her sis. so i would like to thansk mummy and daddy for the birthday wish and the delicious dinner and the beautiful cake, auntie mei ,uncel joe, kor koe godffrey, jie jie jessica, kimberly, jade and her mum. also to evangline, shalinda,monika,vanessa,zi qi, esther mei mei, and at last the least my sister. thanks very much for this wonderful beautiful day. ok i better end off here or else i won't stop!!!

"You are the dancing queen, strong and sweet only 17"

frens in need

2007-12-19T17:18:00.001+08:00

yesterday after collecting results i went for lunch with alicia,kimberly andseow hui. On the way,we went high. so yeah kimberly kept pulling my rubber band off. then after that i didn't have cash so i help alicia redeem some points at macs. after that we went to heartland. then seow hui left. we met up with kimberly's mum sometime later. she bought bubble tea for us. thanks dear. and then we went up to heartland again kimberly went to the toliet but we went to the second floor one and she was at the first floor toilet. hahas, we bang into deborah and xiu wen. talk about our results then we bang into them again near the toilet. after climbing up and we found kimberly then she said she had no money to go home so i lend her $1.20 to go home then kimberly went to the mrt station, alicia's bus came first so she left then i took 153 and then homed. went for kentucky with dad and then home again.

It all not worth it.

2007-12-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

My results was out yesterday. 21 points for six subjects and 12 points for best three subjects. i really don't know what i want to do i just want to give up really. it no point of my failing all the way. I rather work then to continue with ITE since it's the end.

I'm so happy lah lah lah

2007-12-17T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy today cause number one, i found some of my primary school classmates blog. number two i enjoy myself at the bbq yesterday. and i am so in love with mrs wrong's dog. ringo! This is ringo! hahas. anyway results in tomorrow! and my birthday is in two days time yay!!! haha and christmas in 10 days time. lalalas sugar rush.

2007-12-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

Hey readers, sorry for not updating. I have been trying to find a right mood to do it. anyway prom was good. dinner was alright. food was a little gross. too many photos yet to upload. The cell send miss Gan off at Changi Airport, she still in Israel now. cell last week as per normal. Monday fell sick fever at 38.7. still have a runny nose. I'm just posting as a replacement for all the photo that i have yet to upload. something happen. never mind shan't mention. I'm just getting sick and tired of her damn attitude. OK ending here. =/

trip!

2007-11-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

i"m finally back in Sg, It's been quite an emotional,tiring and streeful trip. but anyway chibita's mom gave me something. so did gijo's mum. thanks! anyway i won't type out eveything. i just to tired.

konichiwa!!!

2007-11-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i left for japan. . it's been pretty good so far. it just that ravelling take up lots of time. 6 hours of travel by plane, two hours by bus and then 1/2 hours by taxi. The temperature in japan has been from 10 degrees to 20 degrees. has been from 10 degrees to 20 degrees. and it took me just three hours to travel all the way to the airport to pick up someone. and when i came onlinei was just pick up someone. and when i came here i was excited to meet up with my best pal!!! snoopy my dog. and his friend chibita the jack russell. not forgetting his other friend gijo. ok i update more later. i'm now trying to get into youtube.

2007-10-29T14:37:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog again.

i shall start from chalet,i went for class chalet. damn fun played with mahjong. then help out with some class decorations. then we had to start the barbecue, my head hurts so badly that i had to rest. then have to hep buy ice. then the person disappear. so angry called Kerrie to help me carry it back to the room. then at night, it was havoc night so drank till my face turn red. then something happen. couldn't sleep cause shamala was snoring next to me. so went outside to sleep. jasmine was sleeping next to liying but after that she went into the room. so me and liying slept outside. then the floowing day we went o wild wild wet, had fun but something struck me so mush that i cried. what cause me to cry? it was a beautiful scene, a young girl playing with her parents. i cried so much that the parents realised that i was crying then i told them that i'm alright. why did i cry? cuase i miss those happy time of my childhhod, now they are gone ever since the divorce i felt that way. yeah had teachers over, they came when we were still wet. so we hurried to shower. then i forgot soething went i went back home that bight my toothbrush, toothpaste and my phone charger! oh gosh. so yeah cell on sat was good just as per normal i was late. i went back home alone sitting in nessa's emo seat. lol. yesterday uncle paul came to visit so i just went over for dinner. play games with nicky and daimen.then help out with nicky's homework then home.today, nothign must my boring daily duties as per normal.

hatred

2007-10-17T18:41:00.001+08:00

mummy, I'm so sorry if i ever tell you this. I'm lost lot of weight and i dread eating. I'm fascinated by anorexia and yet hate the overweight. swallowing food to me is a pain, and look at the weighing scale is a sin. I hated the body that i'm in. it rought features and weird faults. please forgive me if i tell you this. i hate my body a lot. mummy please mummy, i'm really really sorry. i been trying to tell you this but i'm just afarid that you wil scold me

It's a nightmare seriously

2007-10-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

Founder's day was a nightmare. we had to be in the canteen instead of the concert hall. got rather emotional getting fed up with the treatment that we are getting. tried to boycott the whole thing but i couldn't cause there were prefect around. Saturday when for cell, got pretty emotional at the end cause of somebody in my cell, yeah only know how to bitch about other people. sunday when out alone met up with alicia bought some things from girls and nalgene bottle. ate alots of things. Today came to dad's office to help out with work. no i'm free and ready to go home. after all i have been out nearly the whole week last week accept for monday. so i'm going out again. i guess i'm will be busy for this time unlike when i was younger. haiz. tmr i'm meeting up with kimberly at school to meet the twins. wednesday to thurday i wil be going for someone's chalet. friday i guess i'm going out with kimberly or maybe someone else. next week will be my chalet from mondya to wednesday. and then thursday to friday i wil be going out with someone else again. and then the following week i will be meeting up with my mum at the airport, so from 3 november to 20 november i will be in japan. and the 21 to 28 i will be out looking for my prom dress. 29 is my prom day. 30 i might be going out again. so thats is my plan for november.i don't know if i will be that busy during december. maybe from the buying of presents!hahas. see ya readers!

Last day of school

2007-10-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

It is my last day of school today! yeah we meet up in class,waited for mrs lee to come and she gave us a talk. so yeah then we had recess, then we had three teachers came into class to talk to us. yeah invidual testimonal and just a message. and we sang keep holding on my avril lavinge. yeah some of us cried. then when it was time to go we hug each other and said goodbye. and then i went down to give letters. and guess what some people malu me to max. at first kimberly gave her the letter then after that tried to push me into asking for her number. i didn't go very malu. she keet smiling to herslef while she was using her handphone. then they change table so they sit next to her. i was then malu didn't dare to put my bag with them. yeah and i got her phone number now! yippee!

it over.....

2007-10-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

yay, all my exams are over. i finshed my cpa and mathematics exam last week. During maths paper two i cired. it was so difficult. so end up crying cause i didn't have enough time. cpa paper. slack around had lot of free time. Saturday, i had cell at heartland mall, not really cell, more like lunchm yeah we did so glass window art, i wil lupload the pic sometime. today is my last paper, finally my N level is over. scream and jump just now, debbie and dede saw me jumping away, think probaly something is wrong with this senior. And i'm going to trying applying for ballet exams tomorrow. yeah but i stiil need to go for audition. great. and i got no ballet basics. how nice. ok ending off here. i need a break seriously.

2007-10-02T16:47:00.000+08:00

today science paper is a killer, especially paper 2. damn stupid can. yeah i just any how do the paper. yeah my pointe should be ready by saturday. yeah! i can't wait. yeah. i going to live my dreams. anyway it remind me of one song by athena cage.

All or nothing

It's the chance of life, get ready, set, fly high.
Above the fear of your mind, go for it.
It's hit or miss, too late for you to quit.
You gotta show 'em how bad you really want this, so...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

Are what you believe, you got to bring the dreams.
Set the pace, competitions take the lead.
This is it, all eyes on you.
So stay on point and prove,
that you deserve whats long overdue.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

My heart is still recovering,
From the heartbreak of another kind,
I'm still drying my tears.
Getting over my own fears in my life.
So I wanna make sure this time that I'm strong enough,
To give it my all...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the green, on your hopes you must lean
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...

So you gotta live your dreams,
So don't you be afraid.
Just set the pace, and take the lead,
It's your time to shine.
Please believe

Pl Agape Funfair

2007-10-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

i had fun at the funfair last Saturday, met up with Alicia and Seow Hui and then head to school to meet up with Yun Zhi, started play with one of the game. which is by Didi's class. then head to the 3b1 store to play. smash pie, saw Pearlyn( formerly know as concubine) had the intention of smashing her. but never, then play game, got a fish, then went to 3E1 game store. then went to the dunking pool to book a place. then shopped around again saw many teacher got dunked. i didn't end up with a few big fishes. but died. and then played more game by the 3A3 girls. yeah Dede was my stationmaster,saw her sister Debbie looking so pissed off, didn't dare to talk to her. end up dunking Mr tang, placed bet to dunk Renee and Zi Qi, ha has, and put in a lot of money for Ms Mabel Goh. ha has. but in total i got a chance to talk to her! yeah, she admitted that she acutallu like me. i was so happy my heart skipped mnay beat! To many to count! so yeah went home telling Alicia and Kimberly about the news.

Today maths paper is horribel. forget, i'm not going to talk about it anymore.

what another week!

2007-09-28T09:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday, something really make me damn pissed off. i dunno know what the hell does this girl one just because she is rich means that take advantage of me ? And then i was like, i rather be alone in the concert hall then to go around with my clique members feeling awkward. yeah but in the end had to go back to class cause mrs wong wants to see us. so yeah. then wanted to go back to the conert hall again end up in the assembly area. looking at the sec 3 dancing. omg, some of the girl are damn funny can. yeah my friend sister and her other friend, damn nice. the way they do like damn flirteous. yeah i saw flamingo,anna and guess who i saw? her! hahas, i damn happy can? today, damn slack,got to go back to class to collect money fot the fun-fair tomorrow. and then mess around. i actually want to go to the concert hall again. but it is closed instead. so i'm now at the com lab playing around with the com. but now i'm trapped in another awkward position. i'm in the computer lab with no one else but didi! yeah, i lend her my clique's calculator. acutally, i can see this realtionship growing. even though we don't talk to each other that often anymore. It really growing alot from where we just started and it like blossoming like a flower. it remind me of a poem that she wrote.

I like a flower fading
here today and gone tomorrow
the waves tossing the ocean
the vapour in the wind
stilly you hear me when i'm calling
lord you catch me when i'm falling,
you told me who i am.

i'm not allowed to copy it, but i just love the poem that she wrote on the computer lab board.anyway i didn't celebrate moon-cake festival at all, i haven't even celebrate it for years! so yeah. and this is like how i spend my unfruitful week.
some people should mind your bloody business, it like nothing to do with you. fuck off lah. bloody fucking slut.

ok, done with minor detail bye!

tearing moments

2007-09-26T17:49:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happen today, but anyway i will post later. kinda a little dis-orientated now.

2007-09-21T17:46:00.000+08:00

Today is quite damn messed up. yeah stupid carrer quest thing. i'm a high D. yeah people think i am a control freak. yes, i am, anyway things are quite fucked up now.

Fine since
you hate me
it alright
i'm strong enough
to support myself.
i don't need you
anymore.

I HATE YOU NOW

Very sian

2007-09-19T14:58:00.000+08:00

I saw her just now during morning assembly. but she just kept staring at me. then i waited for Hui Ying and Esther to come. we passed her somethings. yeah something happen but i won't say. then during assembly that stupid teacher came and tell me off, it is like none of her business. yeah, then spend time in class doing nothing. just hang around. listen too music and then play with phone. yeah and something happen again but anyway i won't say. took some weird videos and some are from Kimberly. ha has. i just want to Say a few more words. this song really apply very much when it comes to family. cause during Sunday sermon, pastor talk about guardian angel. and yeah we are like one family. tessa, esther and me. from the smallest to the biggest. hahas.

there is a candle in every soul
some brightly burning
some dark and cold
there is spirit who brings the fire
ignite a candle

that all the lyricas i know so far. i will try to get the lyrics, but for the men time, i found that something mention about brothers and sister, and i realised that that my brother's and sister's life seems to be the same as mention. so yeah. And i believe that my guardian angel is none other than me didi! thanks di! thanks mei for the encouragment. i <3 ya lots.

tiring week

2007-09-14T19:18:00.000+08:00

it's been another tiring week. one week has past so fast. anyway lots oh things happen today but anyway to many to say. I'm just so tired to blog. ha ha, sorry, i finger are tire after all the practical and chat boxes

2007-09-10T18:15:00.000+08:00

this holidays for me has been a real bore. since today is the first day of school. I guess everybody wants to go home early so that we can have some rest. after i heard about the Vanessa Anne Hudgen's nude photos. when i first heard of it this morning, i didn't believe it. I choose to believe that she is innocent. until i just aw the photos just now, i was shocked. but i still don't understand what the person mean when she say that " two of them are a match!" 9 note this person thinks that I'm a prostitute. damn, no I'm really think about the incident lat year, and how it has affected nearly everybody. but for me it is cause already popped the cherry. another words she try to say that my god won't forgive me because i have take nude photos of myself and try to sell away my body? god, please tell me what do you want of me?

2007-09-05T23:26:00.001+08:00

ahem ahem announcement, someone has ordered her cat army to some and haunt my block cough coughs* but unfortunaely, one of then has a cute salmon pink nose. ans the other two knows me very well. so if anyone is willing to adopted some cats please drop by near my place and i show you the three beloved cats!

2007-09-04T17:17:00.000+08:00

NEW YORK is damn ex. damn kimberly's 8 inch burger cost 28 bucks. rahh, money gone

2007-09-04T16:59:00.000+08:00

it the start of the holiday, but not for me. I got N level examination on the first three days of my hols. anyway i went for my auntie's BBQ on Friday. Friday, ate a lot but didn't have enough marshmallows to go around. so i stayed over at their chalet for one night, early in the morning, i bought my something and ben and jerry's ice cream! chocolate brownie fudge ice cream is the <3s! Then i went back home to took my thing and then went for cell, after cell, i rush back home, started a bit of the laundry, then went back to my aunt's chalet again. this time we bought more mashmallows to eat. then i slept another night at their room agaian. on sunday, we check on at 11. when we were supposed to do so at 10. after that we took a bus to white snads shopping mall, we ate at macs, and then look around, we then bought some water fertilisers. theni bought ben and jerry's ice cream again! hahas, it's really a very funny scene, four children seated at the back fighting, one seated in the middle eating ice cream( me!) and the other pushing around. while waiting to get to bedok to collect something. but i didn't get a chance to take a pic. most of the pic is on my cousin's phone. anyway, yesterday chinese exam was really easy. just that i didn't require any writing, then me kim,al and sharon, when to heartland toeat, we ate a mac, then shop around, bought many things. to many to name. anway i realised that i have so many people to link! hahas, please let me know ifi haven't link you yet! thanks!

2007-08-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to blog here so often anymore until my n levels are over but they very sad thing is that the few paper is not on the same week. soe on september and some on october. And it is like very frustrating when teacher are just sacrificing you break time just for more mock test. It like i can go crazy anytime. anyway sec 4 farewell is the <3s! thanks you very much sec 3 fore planning this out for us even though i know that you are really busy. loves ya lots gurls! I pierce my belly on friday, at first when they just pich the sick it didn't hurt until when the lady applied force in to in then i started breathing in. she told me don't do that or else it will hurt. after i went out of the room , i saw one young lasy with er boyfriend also waiting for her turn. she going to pierce her belly too. she smile at me. hahas,she is a very sweet girl and from my friday shopping spree i spend $16 on a ripcurl bag, $18 on a avril lavinge cd, and a pair a thights from topshop, and guess who isaw, samantha from my former church and her friend. they are both from chij tp, yet they pretended that they never saw me, i wanted a very nice shoe, it looks like a pointe but it is not. And just letting you know, i'm taking ballet lesson soon. i just can't wait for one day where i can see myself in a leotard and a pointe. hahas. anyway i gotta go now, i need to do some homework before my maths teacher kills me. hahasm, i really mean it. ok bye and <3s ya!! *muacks**muacks*

xoxo,
patience

Rahh, that teacher really drives me up against the wall

2007-08-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

that stupid teacher that i complained about got mood swing today, i didn't have space for myself during assembly and yet she there to tell me off. And then during live lesson guess what she made the whole class do? seat according to sitting position, so i retaliated and i asked why are we still treated like primary 1 kid, then what next hold hands and walk two by two? damn stupid by i saw her twice, hahaha i can laugh my head out anyway. It i just can't stand the teacher, come on we are old enough to look after ourselves and yet you treat us like primary 1 kid, where is you human rights? hahas. I'm a democrat. yeah. but she can't seem to get the point that we are going to Tertiary education soon, that why we have more frredom not you you teacher treating us like slaves. damn. fricking pissed off with her. Now my whole entire mood is ruin. thanks to one old hag.

I very fed-up with that retart.

2007-08-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was horrible for me. i vomited during church and once at home. i guess my stomach couldn't digest anything yet. so yeah but i was so dehydrated that i was so tired and weak and sickly. but at night i managed to recovered a bit.

Today, i wet to school feeling a little uncomfortable, yet i still went to school. and guess what you know how much time we have to eat? 15 minutes, it like not enough and yet my stupid teacher wants to check my pinafore and ask me to unpick, and if i unpick i don't have any helm left. it like so idiot and guess what i ask my stupid idiot teacher say cause i watch to much TV that's why I'm sick. damn it not true, already in church fell ill. i don't care. i gonna tell her of tomorrow. it dam irritating when you have an old teacher who thinks she has all the authority to do anything. and yet I'm damn pissed off with her. I don't care you better apologise to me all else i go and see the principal. damn she made me lose my whole appetite the whole day. i going for revenge

Prelimary Week

2007-08-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

Monday

I came to school late but i had to write lines, gee not a good way to teach. but anyway the English paper 1 and paper 2 was easy.

Tuesday

Science paper had us going Zzz. it took us three hours and we only ended at 11. so Eoa paper was drag until 1 pm. but i realised that i made some mistake but something very amazing happen. i stop at one of the question cause i couldn't figure out the answer. But guess what happen? after look at the light bulb above my head, i finally got the answer and for another question, i couldn't figure out the spelling for the petrochemical question something about butane,ester and something else but i couldn't figure it out but i just guess the spelling since i know roughly how it is spelled.

Wednesday

Maths P1 was a killer, i missed out 7 question that i didn't know how to do but at least i tried my best for some of the question but i guess it's only paper one that can pull up my maths grade. CPA, simply chicken, but i was so cold i just couldn't sleep but yet i was so sleepy.

Thursday

Maths P2, simply very amazing. i though that i couldn't answer all the question but after some thought i managed to finish it all up, normally it is P2 that drag everybody down. but i found it so amusing that i could finished up the whole paper.

Friday

English listening comprehension was very slack. but anyway the Eoa practical was so difficult, it like i couldn't finished up the graph. Anyway, if the person thinks she so mature then why are you in our class? nobody is perfect after all, it normal that people make noise. yeah but i happen while me,shamala,shabana, Madeline and seow hui was play heart attack. but anyway i just pretended that i didn't hear anything. and about something else that person can just accused me of attacking this girl Evan, can you get your fact right before you accuse? Is it wrong to ask? i feel so humiliated.

Saturday

cell today talk about sin and about attitude and personality. but after reading the purpose-driven life, i learn that perfectionist are invited in the house of god. but i have to admit that i have the tenancy to be a perfectionist. but i have learn that i should be realistic with my expectation or else i will be crumbling down like what i have experience for the past 4 years.

Superman-Five For Fighting

can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

i agree with the song that it is not easy to be me. it really not, especially went my high expectation that come crumbling on me. controls my life. but i wish people could understand just how i feel.

i <3 them, i really do.

2007-08-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Heya bloggie,
i eill try blogging differently today. tomorroe is my prelims and i have yetto really study anyway, yesterday was clarice's birthday party but i couldn't make it. but i went for cell. we went to bei xuan's house instead of school becuase the school was closed during the past five days. after that Eileen, Minyen, SQ and me went to watch a movie at amk hub. it was a movie by jay chou called secret. i love the movie. today,papa called auntie lita and joakim up to our place, papa secretly hired auntie lita to clean up our house cause our house hasn't been moped for weeks! yeah, and i taught joakim how to play some of the online games.anyway clarice acutally birthday is today. Happpy Birthday Clarice! sorry i couldn't make it yesterday! I have to Proclaim one thing! I <3 my spiritual sisters very much! kekeke* oops sorry charlene* =)

xoxo,
patience!

National Day!!

2007-08-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

ok i have posted for like a few days now. this week has been pretty hectic especially when the teacher try to last mintune cramp everythigninto you head. anyway i want to say congrats to a few people, like start with the prefects, renee,minyen,SQ,xioa hui, for music and clubs, xiao hui, melissa,eileen, for others, agape, anna,charlene,ziqi,diana and good job to those doing the dance,Idah, our class sexaye ladyae. and Yihuan! good job girls but before i continue with my post i hope you don't mind my bragging.

It been twoyears since i left Np, i regret now but i will nver forget those memories, during national day 04, where we will minick the GOH commands that actually not apllicable for the SC. The camp during the november hols where we w ent thorught mund, drian water and splet so close together in the tent, woke up at t like 3 just to put down the tent. i remember when one of my madams taught about maps but i guess i was to sleepy, kept dozing off. i pass my ranking test but i'm porud of those who did the national day paprade today. i'm proud of you batch 35, and i of course i miss ya very much. it have been a memorable experice for me. do you remember how we would always be in a pumping position? doing up to a hundred? how we had to change to the men-style of pumping?? and i believe one of the reason was because you "accidentally" left me and shamala behind. So one of the rules in Np quite apply, keep a lookout for your squad memeber. I will always remember you Squad 35.

i really regret quitting NP =(

My flu bug go away

2007-08-03T15:46:00.000+08:00

i didn't go to school today. I got a mc. but i'm still feeling very very tired. i'm not sure why but i think my body is very worn out. anyway this week has really been a disater. anyway i will post more. bye!

2007-07-29T19:52:00.000+08:00

why i can't live without my computer or my notebook
.Without it, life is mundane
.It connect me to people around the world!
.I can't keep in contact with out without my computer!!
.It my only way of communication
.I love my computer very much!!!

For You

2007-07-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

After from hearing about you from Eileen, i wonder that time went i spoke to you on thursday you put on a smile but then you wanted to end your life, It frighten my with the fact that christians are falling off the reltionship with god. Please don't do anything silly to yourself rememeber that god loves you and that i will always be a lsitening ear. I care because i'm your spiritual sister and that all of us in cell still do love you. I loves you as a sister just remember that k?

cell <3s

2007-07-21T23:54:00.001+08:00

today cell, spoke about a few bible character that are great but yet weak at first. Jonah, Joseph, Paul, Moses, Esther! i spoke about Esther's weakness being a Jew, a woman and yet an orphan, it unusual for her to be the queen, and yet she was wiling to sacrifice her life for her own people, isn't she amazing? but yet i can't see myself as another Esther. that remind me, anyway i will let the person know what i mean. I was so in a huh mood after cell, i didn't understand why Nessa was saying to me and then min yen just said it's by fate. but i don't understand what she mean. never mind maybe i will think about it.

2007-07-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

Tuesday
eveything went fine just a little modd swing along the way.

Wednesday
I had fever in the morning, i didn't go for the morning but next weeek i need to go for make-up sesion. great. I was so moody the whole day, i had an itention of ponning class. but no avil.

Thursday
Fever again, this time round i had to ask kimberly to drag me up the school building. went for health check up, nurse said that i should wear my specs. And that i should do more sit and reach

Today
I hate that damn teacher now that she complain to the principal, everybody have to go to school. so if i'm going to get an mc must i still go to school? dan 45 more depressing days to N level, 23 more day to prelims and 14 more days to common test. oh great. *i'm very the emo*

Racial Harmony Pics!!

2007-07-18T21:01:00.001+08:00

Pics!

2007-07-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep!

2007-07-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep and yet i have to wake up eraly tmr at four in order to do everything or else i can't rech school on time plus i need to get m costume ready by 6.50am. ohh great..

Convo

2007-07-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Emmanuelle says:
heya!
Emmanuelle says:
you very slow leh..
[35]minyen- Crapstatic, it's W4 already?! says:
lol
Emmanuelle says:
have you got you costume for tmr
[35]minyen- Crapstatic, it's W4 already?! says:
yeah
Emmanuelle says:
kk, then see ya tmr
Emmanuelle says:
:)

some very boring convo.. don't bother reading if you think it is boring....

Emmanuelle says:
Heya!
Emmanuelle says:
Don’t mind if I ask you one question?
Vannieser, Ying says:
Hey
Vannieser, Ying says:
Sure
Emmanuelle says:
Do you think I’m ugly?
Vannieser, Ying says:
NOOO!!!!
Vannieser, Ying says:
Hey girl, don't be so negative.
Vannieser, Ying says:
Come on, God made us all fearfully and wonderfully.
Vannieser, Ying says:
Why did you even have that thought?
Emmanuelle says:
Will I find myself like that 200 pound lady always try to be someone pretty but instead being insult for trying to be pretty
Vannieser, Ying says:
Come on. Someone insult you.
Vannieser, Ying says:
Don’t bother!
Vannieser, Ying says:
Don’t bother how people look at you.
Vannieser, Ying says:
But only matter how God look at you.
Vannieser, Ying says:
What did Mrs Tay teach today during assembly?
Emmanuelle says:
About being special?
Vannieser, Ying says:
Yes.
Vannieser, Ying says:
And not to bother what people think about you
Vannieser, Ying says:
Take these insults as the black dots.
Vannieser, Ying says:
Accept it, it will stick
Vannieser, Ying says:
Don't accept it, it will not stick

and some very old convo that stuck me very much........

Emmanuelle says:
heya!
Emmanuelle says:
are you alright?
vanns says:
heyy
vanns says:
ok luhh
Emmanuelle says:
you're coming to school tmr?
vanns says:
yeahh
Emmanuelle says:
yeah oondu can meet his new friend
vanns says:
mine is no more oondu
vanns says:
i don't know why
vanns says:
the name is changed by tamagotchi
Emmanuelle says:
hehe
Emmanuelle says:
can wait to seee yours
Emmanuelle says:
see*

and some very boh liao convo.....

Emmanuelle says:
Heya!
Emmanuelle says:
Can I ask you something?
!madeline. says:
Ya
Emmanuelle says:
Do you think I’m ugly?
!madeline. says:
Lol
!madeline. says:
No!
!madeline. says:
I think ur pretty
!madeline. says:
And I mean it
Emmanuelle says:
Thanks

and some very meanful convo....

seowhui says:
I am using a web messenger. Also on your mobile phone: http://www.ebuddy.com/mobile.php

seowhui says:
hi..frend
Emmanuelle says:
hello
strawberry taste sweet and tasty says:
nice 2 have u here
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
...
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
...
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
I am using a web messenger. Also on your mobile phone: http://www.ebuddy.com/mobile.php

strawberry sweet and tasty says:
.
Emmanuelle says:
sa
Emmanuelle says:
sorry
Emmanuelle says:
i'm taking a shower
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
ok
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
i'm fine
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
=)
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
bath finish
Emmanuelle says:
yeah
Emmanuelle says:
now drying my hair
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
emm...
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
where's yr bear bear??
Emmanuelle says:
it was whith me
Emmanuelle says:
with*
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
=)
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
is my screen name nice???
Emmanuelle says:
=)
Emmanuelle says:
yeay
Emmanuelle says:
yeah
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
;)
Emmanuelle says:
look at my.
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
yah..
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
sry
Emmanuelle says:
sorry about
Emmanuelle says:
?
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
sry abt keep on talking when u r busy...
Emmanuelle says:
never mind
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
:)
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
dont b angry when all of us seleted u as the racial harmony celebration
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
it's normal
Emmanuelle says:
i'm not
Emmanuelle says:
i'm, just worried that i will crew up the thing
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
wont...jus relax...
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
u r alway good...
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
(&)
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
twinkling little star
Emmanuelle says:
\)
Emmanuelle says:
=)
Emmanuelle says:
wanna read my blog??
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
where is it??
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
wat yr website 4 yr blog??
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
=)
Emmanuelle says:
http://i-live-by-colours.blogspot.com
Emmanuelle says:
tag me too
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
i dont hw 2 tag

strawberry sweet and tasty says:
can u tagged me?
Emmanuelle says:
it is the lastheart hspe on the right
Emmanuelle says:
last heart shape at the right*
Emmanuelle says:
just type you name and type the message
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
i jus sign in....
Emmanuelle says:
don't need to log in
Emmanuelle says:
just type
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
i name it as 'shinningcrystal'
Emmanuelle says:
ok
Emmanuelle says:
hey]
Emmanuelle says:
just tag me
Emmanuelle says:
on my blog
Emmanuelle says:
how come i don't have your commet
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
hw 2 go.....n i nd 2 sign in blog again
Emmanuelle says:
yo don't need to
Emmanuelle says:
just go on my blog and tag
Emmanuelle says:
stwepid
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
wait a while
strawberry sweet and tasty says:
but mind is @ blogger.com?/
Emmanuelle says:
no
Emmanuelle says:
need
Emmanuelle says:
just go on my blog and tag
shinning sliver crystal says:
sry type yr add. again
shinning sliver crystal says:
i 4got
Emmanuelle says:
http://i-live-by-colours.blogspot.com
shinning sliver crystal says:
i click yr add.but nthg was there which i might c...
Emmanuelle says:
tyr again
Emmanuelle says:
try*
shinning sliver crystal says:
go where??

Emmanuelle says:
o my blog
Emmanuelle says:
to*
Emmanuelle says:
how can??

You have just sent a Nudge!

You have just sent a Nudge!

and some very boh liao and ugly convo....

that all
the end!!

tmr is a big day

2007-07-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

today sermon was great pastor Melvyn preach about Abraham, and how he offered to sacrifice his one and only son Issac. anyway tomorrow is a big day and i just worried that i will mess everything up. Now I'm trying my best to walk with heel or else i will bring my flats along.. meanwhile i still can do a proper catwalk with heels but at least i managed to keep up with the balance thing. in the meantime i will post up some photos soon. some which we took after the mid-year exams

hahas

2007-07-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, has been not bad just a little tired and very sleepy. I had a fever at night and yet i didn't take a MC.so most of the time i was trying to get some sleep.

Thursday, my thermometer spoilt when i measure my temperature in the morning. ended up having to pay for 50c for that. but we got excused. lucky. anyway Kimberly and Mrs wrong had a big ooh aah this morning, i shan't explain. Mrs wrong choose Kimberly to do the Racial Harmony Pageant but she didn't go because she got tuition.

Today, Kerrie pass me her locker key just now. she said that she had to bee home before 7.15 so i rush all the way to outside PLMC to meet her. she had to help me pay the taxi fee cause the taxi driver refuse to use nets. anyway Mrs wrong has now choose me to do the racial harmony pageant. cause she doesn't trust Kimberly anymore. but at first our class couldn't get in but miss H, decide to let our class in! yay! so we had to settle so last minute paperwork. I saw her today! omg i get an big opportunity to see her friday!! hahas, but went we walk to the 7-eleveb store in pl, i saw her she followed me. =.=, then my phone rang so i quick rang out of the store. and guess what happen! she look at me. omg! hahas gotta go need to do some work.

a start to another week

2007-07-11T18:32:00.000+08:00

Monday, n level oral is at the afternoon, but the whole day i was just laughing my head off yeah we" a few of us" tried to get her attention. n level oral was good just a little scary

Tuesday, she's PMSing us again!, but after all it only a few more months before i can forget about seeing her face again. i didn't see her today. =(

Wednesday,she went up to do announcement today,she sounded like she got a sore throat. during recess we celebrate the birthdya of the june and july babies! after that i bang into her again, i was hiding behind kimberly but instead she ran off letting me just soak under the rain while she walk atr the other side of the sidewalk.very nice. just before chapel i bang into her again! she drop her tie after she saw me. I got my ipod back cause mr tang said that i can have it back cuase i was listening to it outside school. i tried on the pabjabi suit that shamala lended me thanks sham! yeah and now i having a fever, i don't feel like going to school. =(

2007-07-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

I have made a promise with you min yen. yeah so much happen this week. Monday blues as per normal but we have i free period at 1.20. so slacking time. Tuesday, someone said something to me ta hurt very much. i really wish that that person would just admit what she wanted to say, Wednesday, youth day service. yeah slackly. Thursday. Mrs wrong and her PMS session so boring but anyway she went through with us about the 10 years series thing. yeah she had lots of stories to tell us. Friday, Mrs wrong went through with us the possible topic for n level English. and yet one of them really came out. some of them cried during the exams. so stress end up me and Seow Hui got so affected.Saturday, pastor ed preach today learn a lot of thing but to much to say, got a little emotional when some of our cell group people left, Sunday, toady pastor ed preach again today, while worship, i wanted to knee down on my knees but something just prompt me to do so and Sarah prayed for me, i just cried but i didn't know why indeed god has touch me. papa and hes attitude affect me the whole day. cried myself but i didn't tell mum about it. ended up cutting myself. then i asked min yen, if i cut myself would you care. then i admitted it to her. and then she typed " why did you mutilate the body that god gave to you" and i just cried.

dear lord Jesus,
I'm sorry for what i have done.
i promised that i will not do it again,
and that i will treasure the body that god gave to me,
in Jesus name i pray,
amen

iq test!!!

2007-07-04T19:14:00.001+08:00

blogthings...

2007-07-04T18:50:00.001+08:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP)

Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men.
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

weekly blues

2007-07-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
i hate mondays out of all the days in the week. but everything when chaos when the last few lesson started.

TUESDAY
more boring lesson. an another 9 more week to hols and yet another 3 more week to prelims rawr*

WEDNESDAY
kimberly didn't go to school. she went to attend theaddus's funeral. sat in class like a retarded with not books or pencilcase.

THURSDAY
i managed to settle some last mintues paper work. some things to do for the joga thon the day after. and the guzheng tickets. it has to be her in charge of the jog-a-thon

FRIDAY
nice weather , but no time to eat and yet the first to frun. yeah from 1st to 44th. very nice indeed. went to the beach to play with bridget and her group of people. by the time i got home i was really to tired to do anything not even taking a shower.

SATURDAY
cell gp today. when through the bible of jonah. on the way to picking kimberly up the stpid taxi driver choose to be so stubborn to not listen to me. later on the speed the car. some sickening. wjhen for the performance. laster ate at macs. anna's fmaily happen to be eating there too. anyway i had a dream about her parents. something like...

I was in a house with my classmates, heard a crash. and found my potted plants in a very bad state. i look over at the next door neightbours and i asked them " did you see a black cat just now?" "nope" they said. so i asked them further "where are the four kids? asleep?" "yes" they said. as i look furthe into the house i see weird look offering laid on the table. After that i went back to the house and i told my classmates what i saw.
I woke up after this dream thinking to myself why did this dream happen?

SUNDAY
i went to church nad i told shu yan about my dreams. but i stil couldn't figure why i had such a dream. I went to ah ma's house for dinner after church. she cooked my favourite veg for me. another dream happen again but a more mysterious one. i will blog about it some other time.

oh great

2007-06-24T23:24:00.001+08:00

om my goodness! i have done any of my homework. oh great. i got the face the music tomorrow. my didn't even start on my chinese writing and my oral and prelim is just seven weeks away and N level is like four months away. oh great

What a week!

2007-06-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Monday, i went for cell, miss Gan(spiritual grandma) came along. most of them are going for the 100k campaign. Zi Qi bought some goodies from japan. yumyum. mom wanted me to stay with her but i refused to. so she gave papa all the thing that she bought for me. Tuesday, went over to tampines to stay with her went out to watch a movie, fantastic four. she called sa lao yee and got scolding from her. so yeah. Wednesday, went out again with mum to wacth another movie, pirates of the carribean, then when for my hair cut. had dinner with uncle albert at soup resturant.after that went back home.Thursday, i went to wild wild wet with Kimberly i was afraid to ride the waterworks but after try out the similar slides at the yakult thing, i got used to it, after that we when to try the ular-ular, fun but got burned, met four guy at the place. had a romantic chat at the shiok river. Friday, went to met up with mum again, went to tampines ikea. shop for a long time after that we went back home to rest. dinner at no signboard seafood. ate a lot. Saturday, woke up earlier to send mum off. after that redraw money from my bank acct.later in the afternoon, met at bei xuan's house (spiritual mummy) played who the boss, i lost cause everybody won more than me. then Renee, Vanessa and xioa hui left , after that had dinner with miss Gan twelve. that we had ice cream and birthday cake super fulling. When i was going home i told shu yan that i can't join the 100k campaign, but something kept hindering me. Sunday,went to church, pastor khong sermon spoke a lot to me today. then after the tribe meeting Kimberly got a message saying that her cousin died after his tri-marathon training. but god spoke to her a lot before he died. then came back home. went out again to buy provisions. spend a few hours at popular looking for a book. then home now but still yet to pack for school. sian =(

Help

2007-06-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY
yesterday i went out with Chris to vivo, we went to marche to eat, i drank some Bacardi before i ate. and my head was hurting non-stop. then we went to watch ocean thirteen. nice movie. i got lost while heading to the toilet. cause they put the wrong toilet exit sign on a emergency exit sign. oh great. after that i play around the fountain. then i bought super dog and came back home. by the way, Chris is like a super shopaholic guy. anyway went i came back home my head hurts so painful i was just to weak to move around the house. sometime later i vomited all the food that i ate a marche i guess it was because of the Bacardi but i 'm not sure cause I have an allergies to pine nuts. then papa came back home to clear up then i ate my dinner have a cup of milo and i went to bed.

THURSDAY
i went out with madd. we had a god chat while on the way to wheelocks place. we ate at fish & co yum yum* then we walk to pacific plaza to take a look around. the surf board in roxy was nice. then we when to far east to llok around bought a pair of earrings. then we took a train to amk. shop around more. then we went to fareprice xtra cause i wanted a can of coke. then we continue shopping. then we went serperate ways. anyway, what i bought today

1 fish & chip $9
1 cup of sprite $3
1 pair of earring $3
1 cake of coke $0.80
1 pair of fake eyelashes $4.90

Hoplessly Devoted to you-Grease

2007-06-12T17:55:00.001+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY ?
sweet escape-gwen stefani

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Big Big World( i'm a big big girl in a big big world) =D

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The ketchup Song

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
That thing you do

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lambada( to dance [belly dancing]?)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Kungfu fighting

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Ice ice baby

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Macarena

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hey sexy lady ( horny yeah?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Mambo #5

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Lemon tree

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Mambo Italiano

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
sweet child o mine- guns & roses

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
She a lady- tom jones ( miss congenialty?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU??
I'm going bananas-Madonna

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Never be replace- 1st ladi

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Crying- Bon jovi

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Fur Elise-

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
I got chills-Grease

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
No promises-shayne Ward

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
True colours(dove ad?)[ wanting to be beautiful?]

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
Hoplessly devoted to you-Grease

2007-06-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

I hate you

2007-06-11T19:21:00.000+08:00

So what if you know eveything? JIt none of you business now. i don't care if you don't want to come here anymore.

i don't feel good perhaps from the panadol "overdose".
gtg will blogs soon

Great Singapore Sale Fever

2007-06-08T12:10:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY

Went to raffles city shopping centre to queue up for donuts. waited for about three hours. super boring. then bought some donut. went to Cathay cine to watch a movie Shrek 3. I really enjoyed the movie. then headed to Clarke quay for a while took lots of pictures. then went to chinatown for a short while. took even more pictures. then we went back home

THURSDAY

Went out to square2, michelle took some ic photo went to ica to make her ic. after all papa lost her ic. then went to sqare 2 for a short walk, ate new york cheese cake at andersen . then continue shopping after that we went back to grandma's house for dinner.

Anyway went i was looking at some photos just now it came to my mind that somehow i was very close to someone. But we drifted apart as we grew older. now mallory is going to smu to study, bella is now studying at polytechnic and i'm still studying in secondary school. we used to be so close we even go out with eac other very at least twice a year? but now it not like that anymore what a pity..

fruitful two days

2007-06-05T16:28:00.000+08:00

sunday serom is really good it talks about Noah. Well Noah's people had sin against god so he cursed the land. so one day god decided to flood the place. so Noah built a ship as god has ask him to do. Well after that he brought only a pair of animals into the boat then after a few days the let the animal out of the boat and they start all over again. Nice isn't? this week they are going to talk about Esther. i love they bible passage very much. Anyway i have a shopping spree with my sis. at first i wasn't comfortable about shopping with her at first after i bought my dress, We went to the undergarment store. You know shopping there is like so whatever. " you are growing up you will still need to buy them anyway" quote from my mum =.= then we went to Giordano and bought a few top but so far no jeans or skirt. i'm still looking for mini shorts but i can't find it. =( anyway today onlythe way to the dentist at the mrt i saw this poor little down sydrome girl. it so pitful that she will not survive to the 20s. anyway the retainer is damn uncomfortable please. hahas bought a toy crab for my sis's birthday present and bought my lipbalm which i lot it somewhere.

first week of school Holidays

2007-06-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

this first week of holiday have been a disater, i had english lesson from monday to wednesday had to do more cheking of books. were late for all three lessons. thursday suppose to go for rew bbq, but i had to look after jasmine. so spent time at grandma's house. today went to school late. had to collect. I just can't believe my result, i fail three subject out of six. it like damn saddening after that came back home. went to grandma's house to collect my keys instead apent my whole day there. yeah and now i'm home. rawr* my results is like very horrible. i pray my dad will allow to me to go to church. anyway, another 5 more days before jasmine and michelle leaves. i really hope they will leave soon that i can have my room back. so yeah.

2007-05-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

This song is so romantic. I love this song. It reminded me of one show where the man was chasing after a train, why? cause she left him for another country but he didn't have a chance to see her. so she sang this song. hahas this movie was in the 1997 around there when i was still a little kid.

Results =)

2007-05-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

I was really disappointed with my results. I pass only three subjects out of the six subjects. It like I'm doom. I use to fail only one now i fail three! it like very upsetting. But i will just thank god for bringing me through the exam period. Anyway we had loads of fun time yesterday, camwhoring all the way. The incineration didn't smell really bad. I was really tired after the trip i slept in the bus on the way back to school. hahas. weird me. today not many came to school actually on five people assemble for morning devotion. then after that around 8, 13 people came. guess what? JDW called every girl who didn't come to school. She asked all of them to go back to school it like damn irritating can? you keep on nagging. what the hell is wrong with you. anyway i had a talk but the neighbourhood police post about theft. then we were allow to go back home. I really enjoyed the guzheng performance very much. nice one Anna! also choir did quite well. Hahas i love them! I don't fell like going to school tommorrow. But after al Ivy and Eric is coming! So i decided to go just for their program. anyway i saw them like last year during october. and yeah they ca't wait to see my class. Yay!

Results= cry out loud

2007-05-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

I managed to receive some of my results. most of them are a pass accept for science. i just worried that i may not add up to 50 marks total. i better commit all this paper to god. anyway i learn a good lesson from pastor khong sermon. let god break you so that he can make us of us. wonder isn't it? Here are the verses from the sermon.

PSALMS 51;17
The sacrifices of god are a broken spirit and a broken heart and contrite heart O god, you will not despise.

1 PETER5 5;5-7
Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older, All of you clothe yourselves with humility towards one another because " God opposes the proud but give grace to the humble". Humble yourselves, therefore under god's mighty hand that he may lift you up in due time.

some other verses that quite apply to this sermon

JOHN 15;1-2
I am true vine, and my father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruits while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.

Here are the three key to being broken

* Brokenness remove the consciousness of self- God's Program
Romans7;21-24

*Brokenness release the consciousness of god-God's Presence
Matthew 5;3 John3;30 Daniel 11;32

Brokenness realise the power of god-God's Promotion
Philippians 2;5-11 Pslams 34;18

kk i shall continue talking about my day. after that i went back to toa payoh then we took bus 8 to a hawker center. Delicious food. then we went back home.

Yayness!

2007-05-18T16:11:00.000+08:00

yay! exams are over. went back home early ended up got lectured by him. it like your expectation of me is too high. It just that i can't cope so stop forcing me to. Anyway i not sure if this is confirm but i maybe representing 4e1 for Miss Cambridge.
hahas i will to give it a try. anyway will blog more about what happened today. maybe later after dinner

Exam Stress + panda eyes

2007-05-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

mathematics paper 2 is a real killer. well all you can hear is calculator clicking, correction tape swiping and pen writing. i definelty due to get 0 for paper 2 most of my answers is wrong.chinese went quite well. not much of a struggle. just can't ccpe with the oral. i forgot all my word. damn.

I REALLY LOOK LIKE A PANDA THE PAST FEW DAYS. TWO MORE DAYS TO GO
=(

2007-05-14T18:43:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY

After such a long time of slacking, i mug like mad hopping that i can finish studying by 12 but my the time it was 11 i was already to sleepy to do anything. But since they was no one at home so i studied till 1 am in the morning. yawn i'm so tired.

FRIDAY

I didn't really do well on friday. i couldn't catch my breath. i managed to at least finish up the paper. Came back home looking tired. then i just realised it was friday which means i can have a good sleep after many nights of endless sleep

SATURDAY

I went for a conference by Jackie Pullinger. Talking about ministry with the poor. Well i really couldn't understand the talk. But i would love to go to Hong Kong. Around the last talk i went to changi airport to pick up my sister then we went for a drink and finally we headed back. i <3 my niece very much she so cute and lovable. hahas will post some photo of her once i upload it into the com

SUNDAY

I went to grandma place to celebrate her birthday as the same time celebrate mother's day. i had a lot of fun there. i bought a new magazine for myself finally. hahas i'm still so crazy over hana kimi. yeah, over great my period just came. nice timing. it has too be during examination period. bleagh. hahas i get to see the sec 3 again tommrrow.

Sec 3 camp

2007-05-09T10:21:00.000+08:00

Hello blogger, hahas. i miss sec 3 camp so badly. well it seems like today a little freaky. i had a dream about her. anyway the story goes

she just back from camp
meet outside the prefect room's
Me: i kinda like you
Her: i kinda like you too
A: haha, i heard everything
C: hey, what your doing is not right

anyway. yeah, she seems to be my tormentor
i'm fantasing anyway.

oh random thoughts.

bleagh, anyway i really enjoyed those time just now with you gals so much. thanks. anyway i bought myself a cute little card. hahas. anybody wants an princess membership

sorry, don't mind my random ravings hahahas

Pizza Hut x)

2007-05-03T17:54:00.000+08:00

today didn't enjoy myself in school. first period suffer, cause of her nagging. after recess. maths, suprisingly, i studied today and even took down notes. then we when tot he computer lab to do our ne quiz, then we had english test. after that mess around with my phone video cam trying to record the class. pe lesson, damn slackly, got a nail check, damn luckly don't have to cut my, then when to pizza hut to eat. so fun lah please. we order only three pizza, but we finish all the pizza, then we talk about those time during our younger days, borrowed a book from gossip girl series, then went donw to the earring shop, got a second piercing. yayness, super pain at first now not so painful. hahas but i ddin't ask my dad for permission, don't know what he gonna say, oh s**t. kk gtg need to study for ct bye!

school boring

2007-05-02T10:25:00.000+08:00

blogging in school can be boring. i forgot to bring my blouse today. so now I'm suffering in a cold air con room. later i need to rush for my dental appointment after that I'm sending my mum of to japan. ha has. had fun time with her yesterday. she only here for three days. boo. OK better stop. stupid nosy librarian keep look at our computer

shopping spree

2007-05-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

woke up early today to meet up with mum. she only coming here for 3 days. When to eat macs. while mum develop some of the photos. then we when to esplanade, wait until 12pm to collect the phantom of the opera tickets. When to takashimaya, when to eat sushi, then when to Tiffany&Co to take a look at the jewellery. pretty nice though. walk to Louis Vuttion, mum bought her sling bag, Bought strawberry milkshake. yummy, bought my ballet flats, then when to Levi's to buy my top. then when back to the hotel room. After that meet up with step-dad (mum's husband) when to istean Scott's, bought his new shoes and new golf bag. after that travelled to wheelocks's place to take a look at the crumpler bag, i wanted that bag so badly. anyway. then headed home. so now I'm home.

pics

2007-05-01T18:21:00.000+08:00

kaleidoscope

2007-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

kaleidoscope

Very fun bought some flowers for seow hui totally forgot about the rest of the girl. pei qi! i know i forgot to give you something. sorry, i didn't have enough cash. anyway, choir was quite interesting, i think only Jodie is sing the high notes pls. Drama, nice skit i love the story about the mother and the child. the lady who played the mother is from 4A3. she's so pretty, she doesn't really look like her age. ha ha, guitar very good, some managed to clap, i don't know why some teacher complained about them screaming during the performance. i think it just add a lot of flavouring to the song. Lauren, you rocks man. i thought you were really singing. ha has. hand bell, super uber cute. with they actions, and they unfolded collar. now i know the method to getting a gold in honors. guzheng as per normal. Anna looked so stress when she was playing the song. kuo-er-ban and the other song. the second song was quite fast. i don't think Anna could catch up with the music pls. anyway took lots of photos but unfortunately they are not on this com. it's on the other one.

very slack today, yawn, talk about mnoday blues. you are so supper uber cute please. hahas. well smile always yeah girl??

x)

2007-04-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

Last week cell was go. yeah had lots of laughter. On Monday this guy called Glenn lim came to school to talk about anti-drug campaign. i heard a very shocking news during recess. it something about grace. It like her mom complain about the whole class including me. It like her mom pinpoint me because i use to bully her. It like to damn not fair. Had even more laughter again during maths lesson. calculator becomes (xiao-zhu-lay-tor). or 100* Fahrenheit. laugh until my stomach hurts. today had even more laughing lah please. it was like fire alarm. so me and Kimberly didn't know if we should ever g down after all we are not sure if it is a force alarm. then saw Anna's sister still in her classroom with her teacher. so i rush back to my class for a short while ask Kimberly if we should go. then walk out again still in class. so i told Kimberly to bring her personal belonging and then we sped down to the assembly are. i just don't know how to explain about my classmates thing. i just abhor that feeling of depression. It like i trust her for four years and she just treat me like that. i even care for her and yet i get nothing back? Good job handbell and handchime ensemble! I'm so proud of you especially for zi qi and Charlene. Today xioa Hui and Melissa C perform, go choir! so now we are left with guzheng. haiz, and we have yet to hear the results for English drama, Chinese drama and dance, i wish you all the best. And to all April babies! Vanessa,Anna,seow hui,Esther and whoever. happy birthday babies!(throws confetti*) i will pray for you Anna and Vanessa! all the best for guzheng, let's make pl proud. and not to forget lets make god proud too! wow my post is SO essay-ish. it just like JDW making us writing letter for our up-coming exams. OK gotta go need to grab a bath. bye!

Hana Kimi

2007-04-24T18:35:00.001+08:00

just blogging for a short while anyway i just found the theme song for hana kimi. it still look for the song so that i can download into my phone. but i can't find it. anyway will blog more later..

=X

2007-04-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

i had enough of you crap please. i really fell ill on firday. my dad was at home looking after me lah. i didn't even go to bishan. i think you must have mistaken please. ok nafpa test is a utter load of trash. couldn't run doing shutter run even when i wear shoes for my flat foot like waht some poeple say. the shoes seems to be of no use. fcuk, i hate my legs seriously. i just have the feeling to cut off my damn leg. sit up when very well did 31 got an A. finallly. standing board Jump just as horrible. did averagely for sit and reach, but didn't get what i wanted for incline npull up. rawr, can someone help me just cut off my usless leg? >=(

DEAR GOD,
SORRY FOR SLASHING MY HAND I KNOW IF HURTS TO SEE ME TURNING AWAY FROM YOU. THANK YOU FOR GIVING YOU SON TO DIE FOR US SO THAT WE COULD LIVE TOGETHER WITH YOU AGAIN.

DEAR LORD JESUS,
THANK YOU FOR HAVE TO DIE FOR ME. I KNOW THAT IT'S PAINFUL TO SEE SISTERS WHO HAVE TURN AWAY FROM YOU. LORD, I KNOW IT HURTS TO SEE MY SLASH HAND. I SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE.

sports day

2007-04-13T19:02:00.000+08:00

sports day yeaterday, was good. we had mass run first thing in the morning. the sec 4 were trying to watch out for the primar school juniors in case we trample aover them . after that slack around lot os disater. can't move acros from one place to another. cheer competititon, chew house won. spuer yayness. primary school champs, chew, secondary school champs, archer. but overall champs. chew house!!! =D

today, everyhting went fine until break one. had to go to the sick bay. went back home. papa and his foul temper. so got fed up. slash by hand again. damn you. why do treat me like that.

ok i'll stop here to tired to type anymore

2007-04-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

Today is really quite a diaster. i didn't realised that tomrrow is the nafa 2.4 km run. i though it was today, had to go to school with slippers. anyway don't mind ny ramblings. if you think that i just wasting my time send you sms then that show just how selfish your are. please lah it not like i'm forced to remind you or what lah. B****y B***H. you better watch out. please for goodness sake stop picking on me. so what if you are the ah lians, like i care. i not so s****d to be your dog lah. only know how to open your big mouth. if you think that i'm the want who is bully you think twice please.. i sick and tired of this kind of b***h. X(

2007-04-09T19:26:00.000+08:00

hey everybody, now from today onwards i'm gonna blog down here not longer at the sweetsixteenprincess one. alicia tag my blog yeah? =)

guy i forgot to talk about sunday i will future update when i have the time mean while i'm hopping that people will drop by my blog more often

i love cheddar chesse with olives!!

2006-10-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

hello